Wow I am 4.5 hours away from being 28 years old. God has truly been faithful to me. It's funny... All I have been hearing is two things. 1) God's track record with me has been perfect and 2) Every sin that I have committed has been because of my unbelief.
As I look back over the past year and even years before, I believe that God has been so perfect to me even when I was sooooo messed up. When I turned 27 God told me that he was going to complete some things in my life. He did just what He said He was going to do!
I just finish writing a list of 10 things that I want God to help me with this year. At the top of that list is "help me trust again." Not just my trust in Him but in people. I want to trust that someone can actually love me. I want to trust that I do not have be perfect in everything and my mess ups are really alright. I want to trust that I am out of the box that I built up to protect myself over the years. I want to trust that it's okay to let people into my heart again.
Luke 12:7- Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
I want this year of my life to full of faith! I do not want to fear anymore and that requires me truly embrace the love of the Father 1st.
The next thing on my list is help people by my blog and my the gifts that God has given me.
So I start by this Blog. If you struggle with your self-worth and trusting in the Father. Know that God cares. When no one understands and you still find yourself struggling. I say let your prayer be...
Father it's me again. I ask you to help my unbelief. My head is telling me that you love me but heart is saying that I have made too many mistakes. Let your word get out of my head and into my heart. Let me trust you more! Let me meditate on your word and not just read it. Let the words become reality to me! Let the eyes of my heart be opened to the hope of knowing you more and more! Thank you for loving me and being patience with me Father. To rely on myself is dangerous so let my self worth not be in me but in you. Let me not think more of myself than I ought but with sober judgement, in accordance with the measure of faith that you have given to me (Roman 12:3) Increase my FAITH in you LORD!
Remember God's track record is perfect and every sin that you have and will commit will be because you do not trust His faithfulness!
1 comment:
what an awesome word
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